After years of praying on my own, going to church, praying the rosary (raised Catholic), reading the bible, and following everything the Catholic Church has to the best of my ability for whatever reason my prayers to God for a financial miracle to ease my burdens has gone unanswered for years. The stress of this situation has caused problems for me physically and chipped away at my faith on a daily basis and this is the last thing I am trying before giving up on believing in anything on a spiritual level ever again. I know for a select few God has answered their prayers but I am not one of those select few & I don’t want words that I need to hold on to because God loves me because to me that it just words that I really have trouble believing anymore because I no actions have shown me that God has my back and working to help me. Anyone who wishes to pray for me I would appreciate but the only communication I want is that prayers are being said if there is any others no words that will be nothing but false hope to me as I need action not words at this point because I am at rock bottom spiritually, (And before anyone freaks out I am not now and never have been suicidal as I have had a family member end their live in that way and would never put my family through that again). I will just stop believing in God as I have never had any sign of Him hearing me or evening working on a plan to help me out of this nightmare. About time to just rely on myself and no one else including God.